there is only one audience.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

hmmmmm

How are you going to help others when you are so torn and tattered yourself?

Sunday, May 23, 2010

two cents ver.2

Alright I didn't expect this coming, because I thought that this is going to be just another ESS.

No visitors; no converts; no blessings; no new revelations.

Boy was I wrong.

1530 HRS

Robin called and I was taking a nap. I was rather sick this few days so I thought I should just rest. He called to ask me for help to assist a sister's cg visitors of 5 guys. I was rather reluctant and pissed off because he disturbed my slumber. But being the nice guy I am, I readily agreed.

1745 HRS

Seated in Centrepoint's LJS. Just another simple, before-the-service-gathering. Same old faces; familiar faces and comfortable smiles. Eilton asked me how am I intending to share the Good News to the visitors. Uh oh. No template. But I managed to squeeze out my conversion story and witnesses of His great Deeds in my life. Praying hard about it. "God use me use me..." (you get the idea.)

1845 HRS

Walking around in the reception. Visitors not here yet. Round and round and round.. The anxiety levels flys, sky high..

2015 - 2100 HRS

The VIP-s arrived. They smoke when we first met. To me they look like the typical ah bengs. And for the service, they missed the PnW, and even drama! Quite wasted if you ask me. What's more, we only knew each other for around 1/2 hrs and you tell me to share the gospel? HELP!

Altar call. Anxious x 1000. Then God said that they are not here by chance. To me. I immediately shared to the guy beside me. To my surprise he is a Christian like myself.

My suspicion is confirmed when I see them mouth the Sinner's Prayer.

2200 - 2300 HRS

My attention was drawn to this guy which shall be name Jake. He is rather friendly, and yea, he smokes. He shared to me his job scope (which is a new 'student' at SCDF FYI), and about his adventures there. Further chatting revealed to me that he is the leader of the group of five, trying to influence his friends positively and leading them to God. He is even loving enough to give us the chicken rice that was ordered for them in the first place.

Do you even know how surprised I was? I was so grateful and amazed by the power of God, that He really chose the flawed vessels to do His mighty works. And through that, He is glorified.

People that smoke, so what. People that swear, so what? People that talk dirty stuff, so what? People chase for relationships, SO WHAT? Seriously..

It's like God has slapped me and say, "What are we, trying to be a Pharisee? You said, "You called THEM Christians? Aren't you even like that? Are you really any better?". Thoughts like this came into my mind.

The fact here is that we are all sinners. Sinners that fell tragically short of the perfect standard of heaven entry. We don't have the ticket to heaven. But Jesus came and gave those tickets, FOC, no strings attached. We are all sinners, whether do we smoke, swear, or blaspheme.

To tell you the truth, I am rather ashamed of my mentality. But I thank God for this amazing day, which seemed so normal, tranquil and peaceful, He transformed it into a day of overwhelming revelation that really made me bring home A WHOLE LOT of stuff. Stuffs that I couldn't learn by reading the Word on my own. Stuff that only the Spirit can reveal to me.

I really believe that this is really going to change me.

It's not really only about singing hymns; loving your cg mates; doing what your leaders tell you; or encouraging your boys when they need a pat on the shoulder; or about entertaining the fellow dancers with stupid dances.. It's about loving all kinds of people.. Because you came to love the sinners that You so loved..

I want to share this verse that came into my mind when I am typing this out, because I really hope that you readers will really benefit from this, but I think there are only a couple of you are even reading this, but meh.

Mark 2:15-17

15While Jesus was having dinner at Levi's house, many tax collectors and "sinners" were eating with him and his disciples, for there were many who followed him.

¹⁶When the teachers of the law who were Pharisees saw him eating with the "sinners" and tax collectors, they asked his disciples: "Why does he eat with tax collectors and 'sinners'?"

¹⁷On hearing this, Jesus said to them, "It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners."

Thank You for giving me this opportunity to learn another bit of Your will. God, thanks for this. I really needed it. You were relevant, and You brought Yourself to their level.. And that's what exactly You showed me today.

And as of today, I quit my job as a 'Pharisee' and I will learn to love the people that are sinners. Because, You love them as much as You love the 'righteous'.

Praise the LORD!

Thursday, April 29, 2010

two cents.

"Happiness does not come from how much things are worth.

It is up to the heart of the one to receive it..."

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

绝望

人有些时候

可能真的要倒下

才会在过程中成长

真的很累

有如绝望

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

blah

but it was not your past that mattered

it's the present that matters

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Taking goliaths down

If my pains are going to be Your time to shine..

If my short comings are going to be Your masterpiece..

Flex those muscles that gives peace, paint those colours that covers my despair,

cover the mess that I screw up, I put my bet in You, because I know You put Your bet in me.

A powerless boy fighting thru seemingly impossible, towering odds.

Thru my circumstances, take credit and help me triumph. I know You will sweep Your hand

and the goliaths will fall, one by one.

Not by the might of my puny sling,

but the might of Your love.

Thursday, April 15, 2010

A note

In life we are tested by major changes, delayed promises, impossible problems, unanswered prayers, undeserved criticism, and even senseless tragedies. He tests faith through problems, hope by how we handle possessions, and love through people. Thank you for testing my character to reveal my weaknesses, prepare me for more responsibilities, and making every day and each second as a growth opportunity to deepen my character, demonstrate love, and to depend on you. During the last time between the last album, I am amazed by your beautiful, unending, persevering(the list will go on forever) love & because I learn something new from it everyday, & this is what I want to tell the world. I will sing of your love with every breath in me. Thank you father God. "You, Lord, give perfect peace to those who keep their purpose firm and put their trust in you." -Isaiah 26:3

SNSD's Tiffany,

Excerpt,

letter from Oh!

In the beginning I started off liking SNSD because of another member(which is Jessica), but through countless hours of watching videos and listening to their songs, my attraction was drawn to this other lady in which she exhibit caring(and biblical) qualities amazingly surprising for a celeb to have. This other member of SNSD is none other than Tiffany.

I was flipping up other videos of theirs, like Hello Baby( a variety show, in which they act as moms to babysit a baby), Tiffany always has surprised me by showing care towards the baby in a passive (but very visible) way, as she as problems with babies, but we can see that she really loves the baby in her way.

What about her talk on the chat system at their fansite? Quoting biblical verses and pictures of her praying before performances, and lastly her letter, it makes me so amazed at her character that she is publicly announcing what is she singing for and her faith in God in so steadfast that despite what other thinks she post biblical advices on their fansite. Makes me realize that celebs are still human after all. And I do pray for her as well, as she prays for the multitudes of the fans as she ministers through her voice.

Now, this is what kind of qualities that I search for in my future spouse man. Come on, she's pretty , she's biblical.. well what more can you ask for?