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'Love', Part I

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Whenever I try to advise someone else nowadays
I always hold back on what I want to say (or what I CAN say)
specifically biblical principles from non-believers.

And that made me think back.
Whenever we used to quarrel on stupid matters,
Were you holding back then, like the way I do, now?









I remember I once asked you this(somewhere in December 08, don’t rmb alr) :
“If one day you were reduced to a mere beggar in the streets,
Will your ‘god’ come and save you then? Will he throw down food from the sky?”

And you told me: ‘Yes, He will. I believe.’
I remembered I kept dead silent.
I was fumed.
I thought it was just so you, so damn stupid and naïve..

How can human beings live on faith alone or something that isn’t even tangible?
Or even VISIBLE to the damn eye?


A couple of months later,
It was Valentine’s.
The ‘sacred festival’ of love with my ‘sacred beloved’.
The one that meant my world to me then.









Saddened.
Broken.
Destroyed.
Devastated.





For there was one void between us: God.
I was with the world – You are with the Almighty.
Then, we were 2 different people.
Totally, completely, wholly.

I was praying that night,
And you caught me doing that.
I still remembered how you taught me to pray properly and respectfully.
I wanted God to save me then, and He did.

He sent me home safely.
He sent me an angel waiting for me.
He sent me a message of appreciation from you.
He sent me most of all, amazing grace.




The next day,
Ephraim came to share Christ.
Then I was crying in bed.
Because all I had in mind was you, you and you.

But I always thought that this gap that really separates us,
It isn’t something that I could close up myself.
But God can.










It was all because of you, back then, I admit.

I didn’t feel all ‘godly’ after I received the most powerful being on earth.
And I began to complain.
I only wanted the explanation to your answer.
So that one day, I can tell you,





But no.
Love doesn’t work that way.
This 4 months in Christ is the biggest change I ever experienced in my life.
Love wasn’t the equal of lust.

God’s manifestation in this world IS love.
The most powerful force on the heavens and earth.

I always loved 1 Corinthians 13:4, as it’s the first Bible verse I ever heard,
And it came from you.







God’s grace is so powerful.
He decides to give me a chance,
a desecrater of His Word,
in the form of overwhelming grace.

Grace.
I only recently discovered how powerful that is.
I remembered you said about how you won the top-honors for your GB 2nd Company,
you credited it all as ‘God’s grace’ and every girl present was praying for favour.

He sent me you,
an angel disguised in human casing,
to let me know there’s this Jesus,
in this world surrounded by lies and hurts.

4 months is coming to in a week.
The me now isn’t what you once knew.
I can’t say that I no longer think of you,
since you are always on the top of my prayer list, always.

I live by faith that He’s gonna show the way.
Maybe He’s gonna bring me back to you one day.

And even if He don’t,
God still has a plan.
And I know that I can’t see it,
I know that He can.





I’m not ashamed to say that I came church because of a girl.
For because of this wrong point of motivation,
I am having a completely different life.
And it ended up because of a single word, ‘Love’.

Excerpt from I Kissed Dating Goodbye:
‘True love isn’t just displayed through an intimate kiss or a loving embrace,
for it’s explained in self control, patience, and even words being left unsaid.”

And yes,
though I really love you still,
it’s better if it’s left unsaid to you.
'For real love is all about learning how to give' .

Amen.

posted by Solomon @ 5:49 PM